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Journal Entry 11/25/12

As I  write this I still do not know the answer as to whether or not I will be able to take off time in February for this trip-but I am going to write this letter anyway-stepping out in faith that the answer will be YES.  

Well, today I was approved for my time off so now the planning begins for my next visit to my second home.  I leave February 1 & will return February 7.  I would like to share the letter I composed on the 25th.  It will help to explain how I have come to this point. 

Dear  Family and Friends,

Many of you may have noticed that my talk of Honduras hasn't been as frequent in the last few months.  In August my three year term on the Honduras Fountain of Life board was up.  I chose to step down instead of upping for another three years.  I needed time away to rest my heart.  Part of my gifts are compassion & a tender heart, which are great gifts to have, but I tend to take on the hurt, the heaviness, sadness etc. of those that I love.  As much as God is present in Honduras so is the evil one. He causes great havoc and chaos there . What he would love to see more than anything is for God's work to be destroyed-not only in Honduras but everywhere. And he does not rest.  So in August I took what some may call a sabbatical from the Honduras ministry.  Honestly in my heart I didn't know low long it would last & I didn't know when (if ever) I would return to Honduras. 

My thinking at times -as I struggled to decide if I should continue to serve on the board or step way- was 'God has plenty that can serve there, they pray better, they are wiser about making decisions that involve the ministry, etc.' So,  I gave myself permission to step away.  

During this time I have become involved in the women's ministry at Grace, I became a Grammy, & I have also been drawing closer to God. 

A few weeks ago I felt a little spark in my heart & a small voice that said "look into the trip schedule for the 2013 trips".  I did & promptly forgot about it.  Then last week I was approached by one of my fellow 'Hondurans' about going in February.  I am not sure what happened between the spark & the fire but I am now once again on fire for Honduras.  

As I started to pray about this trip I heard that small voice again, reminding me how I had justified to myself why I wasn't needed in Honduras & how others could do it.  "Yes there are people who might pray better & their are those that are wiser about the decisions to be made but I want you to go!  There are girls there there who love you and others that need to be loved-just as I love you."

So here I am...once again preparing to return to my Second Home.  This will be a different trip (they all are) it appears that the team will be very small possibly 5-6 of us.  Debbi  Rayl and I are planning to minister to the tias & other ladies in the church.  That is "our" plan.  We will see what God's plan is.   Please pray for me.  I can not do anything without them...without God's direction.  I would also ask that you consider  supporting me monetarily.  

Stay tuned....it's just begun!